back from batam!!

hellos..finished my church camp ytd. was great...had a great time:) food was super nice la. oh man. i think i grew fatter. definitely de. did many things for the first time. haha.

i swam for the first time in many many years...oh man. and i mean many many years..after i realise how much fats i have..sobsob:( but i swam hoping to get rid of the tan line but wow...there was no sun..duno good news or not. sigh. went for the indonesian massage. had to take off everything (!!!) o.O me and anna were like struggling to keep the towels there. haha. or we'll see each other from head to toe le (!!) haha. apparently i hurt my right shoulder or sth. cos you're not suppose to feel pain when being massaged. my left shoulder was completely shuang, but right was horrigible. pain like crazy. was struggling la..

oh and i also went for "go-cart"..yaa. obviously i drive very the slowly la. the rest went 8 rounds and i went for 4! haha. waste money but was fun la. so nvm..hee.i was so scared i din even press the accelerator for many times, while the guys were practically stepping on it throughout. they were like spinning and skidding at each curb doing their fashionable turns and styles while i'm struggling to turn the steering wheel..sighh:(

the service there was excellent. and i really mean excellent. everywhere you go you see a smile on al their faces. they're really nice. yupp:) nice people..yay. we called for room service 5 times straight la. haha. oops we girls are jus so picky. but the guy came in with a smile always...he recognise us le lor. make frens le. haha.

actually this camp made me think alot. ponder bout the thing that is bothering me still. i endured alot for you. and i don even know if it is wad i want. talking to anna had helped quite a bit altho i din come with any conclusion or anything. but saying some things out helped. feel better. love you anna! at least i know the world is not void..i jus hope i get things clear soon. now that i see another shrouded cloud coming towards me...

well i should start studyin you know.. oh man. i'm so going to die. die die die. ok i should go le. cya everyone:)

i really tolerated alot this camp.
and i don even know if it is worth it.
is it?
pls tell me it is
if it's not,
let me know it soon, Lord.
//
wad are you thinking?
wad do you want?
you want me to tell you but how can i?
when i don see how this trust will work
i dont know how to treat you
i don want a wrong idea.
neither do i want to lose this.
non cada per me..